Category Archives: baby in tummy

invisible ink

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scrabble game post sara’s wedding. chris and i had to entertain ourselves with our phones b/c carter and kent would take FOREVER wither their moves.

i am currently having a conversation via e-mail a ta of one of my classes about the answer to one of the problems on the problem set. it is a class of 60 people, which i hate, mainly b/c grading and such gets very formulaic and if you don’t put the exact answer they are looking for then they count off. (and some people get the exact answer during office hours.) i am not understanding why what i did was wrong, and the ta cannot tell me why my answer is wrong. and that is annoying. if i got it wrong, fine, but i want to learn from my mistakes and it makes it really hard to learn from them if the ta cannot explain why what i did was wrong. sigh. it also doesn’t help that i could not really understand her when i met with her on tuesday, plus she totally was late b/c she was in the wrong place to meet me. i just want to understand why my way is wrong, not that i didn’t give the exact answer that was on the answer key.

i can tell i’m in my last trimester, mainly b/c my level of irritation with the world and my lack of filter. Usually if i get irritated, i feel too bad to say anything, but when i am preggers i do not feel bad. it is nice, i’ll be honest. i not saying something that needs to be said just b/c i’m afraid. also: my sciatic nerve is being compressed by my pelvis shape changing. It gets better with the elliptical, but every so often, things shift and damn, it hurts. and after a day of picking up aiden a million times it is achey, but that is my only complaint.

aiden is VERY cute with my belly. he says hi baby to it and gives it hugs. very cute.

my first paper in my law and policy class, as i mentioned, was sent via e-mail. the prof (who is a partner is a big law firm here) printed them out, wrote comments on them, and had his secretary scan them in and e-mail them back to us.

i just signed ben up to maybe be a wheel of fortune contestant. he is really good.

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before we moved – helping pack by putting all the spoons on that plate.

on my midterm yesterday there was a bonus question (worth 3 pts) asking about an event that happened in lecture – on a slide a week or two ago, the number in a matrix were flipped, and someone pointed it out and the prof changed it there on the spot. the question ask to tell some detail of the event – who pointed it out, what was the slide about, what was the problem. It noted that this was a gift to people who came to class and did not sleep in class. so which i responded on the question, people really sleep in class? though i guess the girl who always sits in front of me spend a lot of time on gmail.

later in the day, in my policy class, the girl who sit at my table in that class spent the entire 3 hours reading an economics paper and doing other things on her computer. she didn’t even pretend to be paying attention. does she think that the prof doesn’t notice? especially since i do participate in class and so he is looking at our table a lot. i understand the occasionally email/text (i do text a bit during that class as usually there is something going on with family/aiden (i.e. yesterday my mom’s surgery)), but i still pay attention and participate. i think the prof should CALL ON these people. he calls on other people. though i’ve decided he only know like 4 people’s day despite us fill out a seating chart every meeting.

i hate that stats program i installed, for all the reasons stated before AND because it has totally jacked with my system b/c it isn’t really written for mac ox (according to the interwebs this is not an uncommon problem). so i’m getting ERRORS ON MY APPLE. very unhappy. though it is nice to be able to use that program on my computer. one more month, and then OFF OFF damn software.

third trimester. and now i’m having to see my OB every two weeks. she is funny. we chat like peers. and she assured me that i am not going to die from the swine flu (though i did know this). and she said as of now she would say it would be fine for me to go to houston, but that we would have to revisit it when the travel date gets closer depending on if the strain going around gets worse. and she said that the dr in the NY times was wrong: preggers can take antivirals..at least i can (probably b/c i am not in the 1st trimester). so now i am really not worried. she said as long as i go to the dr if i even think that i have symptoms and get tested it would be fine. we joked about how it is probably getting so much media attention because people are tired of hearing about the economy. and talked about how people should calm down b/c the people who died in mexico didn’t have any medical care. anyways, she’s funny. she also said that i carry babies very well – i.e. i’m not major huge. i saiid yes, i am lucky. i am lucky.

tempted by the fruit of another

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chris came to visit earlier this month

While I was pregnant I did not give up my diet coke habit, but i did cut back to just the days i was interning. Since I have been nursing, I have cut out all out all caffeine, including my beloved iced tea. I just did not want to chance interference with sleep. Since it turned cold, I have been craving a nice coffee drink. I have resisted until lately when I was going to give into decaf. I then realized that I take milk in my coffee and the known effects of dairy were definitely not worth it. This morning when i was out i realized – soy milk! Starbucks has soy milk! So i went by and was so concentrated on getting it with soy milk that i forgot to order decaf with my latte. I used to say that caffeine did not effect me, but it turns out after 3 months off, two espresso shots gave me a high caffeine high. It was crazy. I got home and did a million things with so much energy. I couldn’t sit still during lunch. It was amusing. It also started a conversation on the effects of caffeine in breastmilk. After some internet research, we found out that my latte had 150 mg. According to babycenter.com, you really need 400 mg to affect the baby, so hopefully we’ll still get our sleep, but if not, ben is now assured that aiden’s heart isn’t going to race.

So it as been my policy every other year since high school to stay in my warm sane house on the day after thanksgiving. i never thought it was worth braving the crowds to shopping. This was before I got addicted to the craft store and got their circular coupon for 20% off of everything that was already on sale! It was crazy! So i had to go. And so i went. at a reason hour. 10 am found me in the busy, but not crazy store. I got everything on my list. There was a whole bunch of things i saved 70% on! It was awesome.

happy belated thanksgiving. we were at ben’s parents with 30 family members. i spent much of yesterday working on a video for my family. it turns out that our digital video camera writes in a format not compatible with imovie. and blah blah blah i figured out that i need to borrow ben’s parent’s camera which has a hook up and then editing with be a lot easier. but it got a short video done for my fam and that made my day. My bread and pies, as always, were a big hit. Next year dinner has to be earlier than 6:30. Everyone else eats thanksgiving dinner at 5 (or earlier). 6:30 is just too late with Aiden b/c people like to linger over dinner and then after before pie, but we had to speed it up b/c aiden was getting tired (it was past bedtime). other than that it was a good day. we were pretty militant about hand washing, so i hope that we did not pick up a sickness. i’ll admit a million people handling him makes me uncomfortable. but he was a champ all day. we got him down for some naps so he held up well over the 9 hours, but i think by the end, in addition to being tired, he was tired of being handled. I ended up just putting him in his car seat so he could eat his fist and he was much happier during pie.

I am thankful for so many things. I am very very lucky. This is underscored this year by a friend’s loss of her mother to cancer and other’s sister’s cancer that it not looking well despite being told she would be cured. So I am thankful for my families and their relative health. I am very thankful for my husband and our kid and the ease of getting pregnant, the pregnancy, and birth.

they tried to send me rehab

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Today was Aiden’s two weeks check-up. He has gain 1.5 lbs in the past two week. Everyone was amazed. I wasn’t exactly surprised as he eats A LOT. He is now 8 lbs. Today is his official due date. Had he spent the past two weeks in the womb he would probably be almost 8 lbs. Now he is beginning to fit into some of the newborn clothes. Of course, I always pick the outfits with doggies on them. I will be sad when he can’t fit into the premie outfits. They are so cute.

Fall has arrived in Chicago. It didn’t get above 67 today. A month ago I would have loved this, as i was carrying around a small heater and was never cold. Now I am back to being cold alllllll the time. I get into bed and spend 10 minutes complaining about freezing to death. Ben is sad as he misses me liking the air conditioning. Now I am back to hating it. I forgot how cold I am not pregnant.

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my mom & aiden

It is strange to not be pregnant anymore. It is not strange to have Aiden here, but strange that he is not in my tummy. I felt it the most last night, my first time out without the baby in 9 months. It is strange to buckle the seatbeat and not think about the baby within.

Society scared me a lot about pregnancy and childbirth. I thought that I was going get all the bad pregnancy stuff, but i didn’t. I started the pregnancy so afraid of the pain of child birth during our first OB visit i said that i wanted an epidural immediately. But my pregnancy was easy and I read so much I came to accept the pain of child birth as something i could handle. I am thankful to my high school friend Tera, who had a baby a year ago. Last Christmas we were talking and she said not to be believe all the scary things you hear about pregnancy and childbirth.

So I pass that message along – don’t believe all the scary things about pregnancy and childbirth. But I do have a couple of things that I feel made my experience better (for what it worth).

1. Work out. I did 5 miles on the elliptical every morning taking the 4th morning off for 30 mins of weight training (and abs before 25 weeks). It helped with a lot of the pregnancy and i think that helped me avoid a lot of the annoying pregnancy side effects.
2. Take fish oil, helps with the annoying pregnancy side effects